And so my birthday has rolled around again. This past year was an interesting one, full of things that I did that I have not in the past, full of lessons that I needed to relearn, and full of information about my own life that I needed to discover.
Things that I did that were new:
I traveled to New York City on a tourist trip with my friends. I had never organized that involved a trip before, and it was nice to see it come to fruition. It was a wonderful time of visiting with those girls in a way that I had not done for a long time. Plus, we got to see the city.
I went to Boston and heard a Star Wars Overture played by a live orchestra at the Hatchshell along the Charles River. Not to be forgotten soon.
I started Grad School. More about this later, but this felt like something a long time coming. After visiting Ireland in 2008, and deciding Trinity College was not going to work, UConn felt less daunting, and I was excited about moving forward with my career, even if it did mean leaving the American Antiquarian Society.
I worked 60+ hours a week for three months straight.
I am employed by Walmart. Of all the places I thought I'd end up, Walmart was nowhere on that list. But I am very grateful to them for the ways they have worked with me around my school schedule. They have been wonderful to me.
I met people born in foreign countries and far off continents, and I call them my friends.
Information discovered about my own Life:
I am blessed to live in the United States of America. Information driven home by interactions with Ghanaian nationals who have so little in their home country, while I have so much.
I can get up early, and go to bed late, and still function in a way approximating normality.
I am not an academic historian. The arguments and specialization... it's not for me. I prefer to reach a wide audience, with a broad interpretation, and broad knowledge base that I can use to (1) get people interested in their history, and (2) make them think about the historians craft. I also discovered that I do not like the discipline inherent in the discipline of history. Some is good, but I think History should be more freeform and flowing, and encompassing more forms than are currently thought of as history. But I am currently in an academic history program, and will be here for another semester at least.
A PhD is not in my foreseeable future.
I will not talk in class unless I have something valuable to add. If I'm not speaking, I have nothing to contribute. If you try to push me, you will get words and phrases that do not make sense with each other, and then we are both uncomfortable.
I need a set schedule to motivate me to do work. It is really hard to get up, then sit in my room and work. I need to move, to go somewhere else in order to do what needs to be done.
If my heart and my head are not functioning as one, I am a mess, and even more scatterbrained than normal. If they work together, however, it can seem as though everything in the world is going right.
Life Lessons I needed to relearn:
I can do nothing without God who strengthens me, gives me wisdom, and reminds me constantly that I am just a human, and I have so much more sanctification to undergo before I am like Christ.
I learned things about love that I had known in my head. My heart needed to learn them as well.
God brings hardship into our lives so that we learn to trust Him more.
We don't know what is in our future. Only God does. But everything He does in our future, and in our present, He does for our good, and for His glory. Therefore, all worries are ridiculous if we are truly God's children.
Michelle
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